Lovynn

Very Suddenly and Randomly,
I missed Lovynn!!!

Yea! Wacking Babe! Weewoowee~~ Haha

Pardon the Kuku Face! Haha!

A Very Common Scene During Practice and training! Aww...

Yea, Lovynn is a great teacher of dance. Haha. SURPRISED!!!!
XianBi and myself were on TV dancing. We are Dancing Stars in our own right!!!!

Bet you can't beat this! Haha!! Locking and popping!

See her dance? (don't see us la! Haha!!)

Yeap, u will catch glimpse of her! =)

ShangHai

Woah.. I will be flying in around 5 hrs time.
Excited yet nervous at the same time. It will be my FIRST time flying alone.. Totally alone la.

I will be meeting XianBi and Kenneth over at ShangHai airport. To 0 Degree Celsius and to the land of Xiao Long Bao. I am really excited and thank God for the trip.
=) I really love you guys in Singapore, but I guess I really need a break ba. Haha! =D

I will be back on the 22nd dec, 5am, at Terminal 3. Haha! Its a little tad early la. =)
Alright, last check of the laguage and I am off. =)

<3 all of you! Jia You!!!

XIAO LONG BAO!!!!!

drama picture

Crazy People.

These are some of THE BEST guys I have ever worked together with. Although its like almost 6 months later, but you guys are the best!!


I think I post this prayer and poem before. But nevertheless, shall do it again to remind myself

The Daily Prayer of Mother Teresa:

DEAR JESUS, help me to spread Thy fragrance everywhere I go. Flood my soul with Thy spirit and love. Penetrate and possess my whole being so utterly that all my life may only be a radiance of Thine. Shine through me and be so in me that every soul I come in contact with may feel Thy presence in my soul. Let them look up and see no longer me but only Jesus. Stay with me and then I shall begin to shine as you shine, so to shine as to be a light to others.





'Our Greatest Fear' by

Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other

people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

Its not about us, but about them

Tears on the carpet floor

Woah.. Long week. So many things happened within a short time.
Uncle Joseph or Jimmy passed away last wednesday. Whenever Grace and him come for service in the past, I have took care and always sat beside them.

The Goh family and Pastor Kenneth Sim (L-R):
Amelia(4th), Cecilia(3rd), Grace (5th), Auntie, Victor(2nd), Pastor Kenneth Sim and Joan(Eldest)

I have learned so much about uncle and about his selflessness. I have also got so much revelations and even learned about parenting. God's Grace is really awesome and unbelievably good (I can't find a word to describe what I wanna say.)

I felt that strength of a person is not found when they are on a high. Real Solid Strength is found in the valleys, in the face of adversity and dangers.

Courage is not the absence of fear but courage is standing
face to face against fear without wavering in conviction, faith and belief.

Out of this incident, I have witness first-hand real courage in the Goh Family. And I have experienced a touch of the God factor in every of their individual life. I really want to say, that they are so so so blessed as a family, and they impacted me in such a big way, that I can't put in words.

Even at times when I visited Uncle at the Hospital and throughout the wake, the very tangible presence of God and peace of God was in the place. Even when there was a painful attack on uncle during one of the hospital visit, the peace of God was in the place. Such is the anointing and presence of God this family carries.

At the columbarium, as we were preparing to leave. I saw so much stains on the carpeted floor at the first row near the glass window. And undoubtedly, they are tear stains left by precious family members.
It was very unsightly and even looks dirty. But then and there God spoke so dearly to me.

"Through the eyes of man, those tear-stains may look disgusting and dirty, but to Me, they are precious and I am wiping off all of them off your face and saving them up in a bottle."

I just want to post of the courage and love this family has for God and each other.
I have seen them quarreling with one another, yet seeking reconciliation with one another with gifts and words almost immediately.
I have seen them encouraging uncle with words of faith and praying for their dad, trusting God for healing and salvation as a family.

I have seen them fighting a huge battle in their home front, yet still continuing with their ministry and being there for their members. Even deep inside them, they need counseling and consoling, they still make it a point to love their members and don't even show it.

I remember just one day before Uncle Jimmy passed away, Amelia had to console one member because of relationship problems between her and her parents. I mean Ame's dad is in critical condition and she still does that! She is solid la.

One thing I know for sure, All those things that they shared about their dad, and how courageous, selfless, caring and giving their dad were,
They carried his DNA

I Passed My Driving Basic Theory Test

In Photography, film is your canvas and light is your paint. Have Fun.

-From Marina Barrage

i simply live

I Simply Live
Hillsong

SAY THE WORD
AND I WILL SING FOR YOU
OVER OCEANS DEEP I WILL FOLLOW
IF EACH STAR WAS A SONG
EVERY BREATH OF WIND PRAISE
IT WILL STILL FAIL BY FAR TO SAY
ALL MY HEART CONTAINS
I SIMPLY LIVE
I SIMPLY LIVE FOR YOU

AS THE GLORY OF YOUR PRESENCE NOW
FILLS THIS PLACE
IN WORSHIP WE WILL MEET YOU FACE TO FACE
THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
TO WHICH YOU CAN BE COMPARED
GLORY AND GLORY
PRAISE UPON PRAISE

YOU BIND THE BROKEN-HEARTED AND
SAVE ALL MY TEARS
BY YOUR WORD YOU SET THE CAPTIVES FREE
THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
THAT YOU CANNOT DO
I SIMPLY LIVE

I SIMPLY LIVE FOR YOU

Recently, I have been singing this song so much. Never fail to touch my heart.
Praise God. The morning prayer meetings last week has been awesome. I have really been spending more time worshiping God. The part that always touch my heart in this song is the line:

IN WORSHIP WE WILL MEET YOU FACE TO FACE

What a beautiful line.. And how very true. Its always during worship that I felt so much closer to God and can hear His voice and warmth so deeply. Praying and reading the Bible, I do them too but, for me personally, music and worship is the thing that really draws me closer to God.

Recently God also have been speaking alot about having faith in Him in finances.

In 1Kings 17, Elijah prayed that famous prayer that stopped rain for 3 years. And there was a huge drought and famine across the entire land, but in 1 kings 18, after 3 years, Elijah went and challenged Baal's prophets. 1 vs 450. And when it was Elijah's turn. This is what he did:

Then Elijah said to all the people, "Come here to me." They came to him, and he repaired the altar of the LORD, which was in ruins. Elijah took twelve stones, one for each of the tribes descended from Jacob, to whom the word of the LORD had come, saying, "Your name shall be Israel." With the stones he built an altar in the name of the LORD, and he dug a trench around it large enough to hold two seahs of seed. He arranged the wood, cut the bull into pieces and laid it on the wood. Then he said to them, "Fill four large jars with water and pour it on the offering and on the wood."

"Do it again," he said, and they did it again.
"Do it a third time," he ordered, and they did it the third time. The water ran down around the altar and even filled the trench.

At the time of sacrifice, the prophet Elijah stepped forward and prayed: "O LORD, God of Abraham, Isaac and Israel, let it be known today that you are God in Israel and that I am your servant and have done all these things at your command. Answer me, O LORD, answer me, so these people will know that you, O LORD, are God, and that you are turning their hearts back again."

Then the fire of the LORD fell and burned up the sacrifice, the wood, the stones and the soil, and also licked up the water in the trench.

When all the people saw this, they fell prostrate and cried, "The LORD -He is God! The LORD - He is God!"

This is an amazing story. There was drought in the land and the most precious thing on planet earth was not Gold or Diamonds or precious stones. It was water!!! But when Elijah build the altar of God, he build it with not just wood and stones. He added water into the trench. The Bible says a hole big enough to hold 2 seahs of seed.

1 seah = 2 Gallons. 4 Gallons = 18 Lt of water. Thats four bottles of these:Can u imagine pouring that much water into a trough and asking God to burn up the bull? Siao right? Impossible, Literally soaking wet leh... But then God came through and the people saw the reality of God and turned to Him.

And Elijah said to Ahab, "Go, eat and drink, for there is the sound of a heavy rain." So Ahab went off to eat and drink, but Elijah climbed to the top of Carmel, bent down to the ground and put his face between his knees.

"Go and look toward the sea," he told his servant. And he went up and looked.
"There is nothing there," he said.
Seven times Elijah said, "Go back."

The seventh time the servant reported, "A cloud as small as a man's hand is rising from the sea." So Elijah said, "Go and tell Ahab, 'Hitch up your chariot and go down before the rain stops you.'

45 Meanwhile, the sky grew black with clouds, the wind rose, a heavy rain came on and Ahab rode off to Jezreel.
After that it begin to rain and prosperity begin to pour down. This story really inspired me to give my precious to God.

Arise and Build

Long week

Wow.. Its a super long week. So many engagements, things-to-do, breakthroughs, and mountain tops. Learned so much in the entire week.

Haha! Last week has really been awesome.
Did some photoshoots, learned guitar, taught guitar, played for other cell group. And also wanna thank God for my financial breakthrough. Truly God is powerful and listens to prayers. =)
Weewoowee..

But this week, its also going to be super long and stretching. But all things are possible through Christ who strengthens me.
Looking forward to this coming week. =)

Guitar Lesson With Poh

Weewoowee.. I am currently learning guitar from a teacher. And yes, this is my teacher!

Teo Poh Heng, affectionately called Poh by CHC members.

This is something that I really wanted for a long time and have always visualised and prayed for it! Thanks Amelia! Haha! =)

Poh is just amazing la! Even a simple guitar class always carries a powerful revelation. Today the thing that I was most impacted when he said this:

"Many people who learn scaling (notes that ascend or descend by family notes or scales) always go for speed rather than accuracy and precision. They can play very fast, but often miss a note or two in between. It becomes a habit. When it becomes a habit plus the speed which they are playing at. They will never become great guitarists. Unless they break it and relearn everything."

No matter what some people say about other guitarist who are better or what, I would say, Poh is STILL THE BEST!!! Sometimes we see him play in church when he is leading Praise and Worship, we think that for Poh, he can only strum. Tsk tsk tsk... You should see him play the electric guitar. Floored us to the ground la.. You must see him play in the flesh, live and in colour, before you can fully appreciate his playing. Haha! Awesome!

His teaching style is awesome too. Learned alot about teaching from him! He is just awesome! =) Like what Poh taught today, I am going to bring people into my world, through my playing, into God's presence.

New Breakthrough

Man..
I need a new breakthrough. Most things are stable in my life now. But I don't just want stable. I want prosperous living. Excellent Living. Going to pray and fast for it. Too Stable.. Too stagnant

I am seriously going to fast the kind of serious-fast-when-you-get-serious-with-God-and-then-you-fast kind of serious fasting. Fierce. Super fierce.

And as a matter of fact. This few verses are now surely but not too slowly becoming the conviction of my life

You lazy fool, look at an ant.
Watch it closely; let it teach you a thing or two.
Nobody has to tell it what to do.
All summer it stores up food;
at harvest it stockpiles provisions.
So how long are you going to laze around doing nothing?
How long before you get out of bed?
A nap here, a nap there, a day off here, a day off there,
sit back, take it easy—do you know what comes next?
Just this: You can look forward to a dirt-poor life,
poverty your permanent houseguest!
- Proverbs 6:6-11

Double fierceness...

"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

"Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

-Matthew 5:3-12

Triple Kill by God..

Yes the Sermon on the Mount.

We have so much information, first-class preaching, Great sermons. But what matters most is the application. Soap is everywhere, but it is useless if we keep them lying around. Yes, we do not change overnight. But it takes discipline.

Phil Pringle says:

The world lies at the feet of the disciplined. Everyone dreams. But only the disciplined will accomplish theirs. A dream without disciplines is the pathway to frustration, anger, and deep disappointment. Even a dream from God has no guarantee it will come to pass. Success of the dream demands discipline. Start disciplined, stay disciplined, finish disciplined. Disciplines are the way of life. Morals, finances, attitudes, emotions, relationships, work, devotions; all require discipline to be healthy and successful.

Patricia Fripp says:
You do what you have to do, to do what you want to do.'

I am trying, really trying! Thats why I will be fasting more. =) Pray for me! Don't be too merciiful on me. Thx Kenneth! You reminded me! =)

Was looking through some blogs of a particular friend that I met once only. Read some her posts. Although they were criticizing a particular Cg member of mine, but my heart goes out to her. She looks a perfectly sweet girl. Looks naive, innocent and pretty as well. But some of the words that she used and all don't really tally with how she looks on the outside.
Got reminded of a verse:

A good man out of the good treasure of his heart brings forth good;
and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart brings forth evil.
For out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.

-Luke 6:45

When I saw her for the first time only bout a month or two ago, she said she was sec two. 14 years of her life embroiled in bitterness, jealousy and also insecurity. Seeking love in the wrong places. Can you imagine how much she is going through. Sometimes, we often say that someone's character drive a person away from friends and company. But what is the root of the character?
Someone said before that "Character is Not Shaped Overnight."

But I am also disappointed in 'Christians' who defended my member. There is nothing wrong in defending one another, but its how we do it. How we react or respond to an issue. The late Dr. Ed Cole said this, "A childish person reacts to situations, but a mature person responds to it." React rely on feelings, respond thinks first before speaking. The same verse applies:

A good man out of the good treasure of his heart brings forth good;
and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart brings forth evil.
For out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.

-Luke 6:45

Pastor Kong spoke about being a classy people, a classy generation of believers. Not because we want to show that we are superior to others. Not to snub. But to bring and carry the name of our Father, The King; The Lord, well. We carry the reputation of God.

The issue here is this:

Didn't we behave and talk like them (non-believers) before?

Tan Guang Xiang: One of the worst students in Bedok North Secondary School.
Smoking, Fighting, drinking and also VERY Vulgar in speech
Retained in Sec 3;
Almost expelled in Sec 2
(But escaped from it because I pushed the responsibility of the issue to someone else)

But on the 8th of Oct 2005, Jesus came and loved me for WHO I AM and Whom I was, And How I were. People that entered my life, accepted me were Sheena, Royston, Kenneth and also Xianbi and even Jasmine, When I was still who and how I were.
A major part of how I felt God's love is through them.

People, are we too judgmental?

God wants us to be a channel where His love can be felt by not just believers, but to those who never knew Him as well.

Loving God wholeheartedly; Loving People, (Not just Christians or your cg mem), Fervently

Gilgal->Bethel->Jericho->Jordan-> Double Portion-> Mount Carmel

2 Kings 2

Elijah Ascends to Heaven

1 And it came to pass, when the LORD was about to take up Elijah into heaven by a whirlwind, that Elijah went with Elisha from Gilgal.



2 Then Elijah said to Elisha, “Stay here, please, for the LORD has sent me on to Bethel.”
But Elisha said, “As the LORD lives, and as your soul lives, I will not leave you!” So they went down to Bethel.
3 Now the sons of the prophets who were at Bethel came out to Elisha, and said to him, “Do you know that the LORD will take away your master from over you today?”
And he said, “Yes, I know; keep silent!”



4 Then Elijah said to him, “Elisha, stay here, please, for the LORD has sent me on to Jericho.”
But he said, “As the LORD lives, and as your soul lives, I will not leave you!” So they came to Jericho.
5 Now the sons of the prophets who were at Jericho came to Elisha and said to him, “Do you know that the LORD will take away your master from over you today?”
So he answered, “Yes, I know; keep silent!”
6 Then Elijah said to him, “Stay here, please, for the LORD has sent me on to the Jordan.”
But he said, “As the LORD lives, and as your soul lives, I will not leave you!” So the two of them went on.



7 And fifty men of the sons of the prophets went and stood facing them at a distance, while the two of them stood by the Jordan.
8 Now Elijah took his mantle, rolled it up, and struck the water; and it was divided this way and that, so that the two of them crossed over on dry ground.



9 And so it was, when they had crossed over, that Elijah said to Elisha, “Ask! What may I do for you, before I am taken away from you?”
Elisha said, “Please let a double portion of your spirit be upon me.”
10 So he said, “You have asked a hard thing. Nevertheless, if you see me when I am taken from you, it shall be so for you; but if not, it shall not be so.”
11 Then it happened, as they continued on and talked, that suddenly a chariot of fire appeared with horses of fire, and separated the two of them; and Elijah went up by a whirlwind into heaven.
12 And Elisha saw it, and he cried out, “My father, my father, the chariot of Israel and its horsemen!” So he saw him no more. And he took hold of his own clothes and tore them into two pieces.
13 He also took up the mantle of Elijah that had fallen from him, and went back and stood by the bank of the Jordan.
14 Then he took the mantle of Elijah that had fallen from him, and struck the water, and said, “Where is the LORD God of Elijah?” And when he also had struck the water, it was divided this way and that; and Elisha crossed over.
15 Now when the sons of the prophets who were from Jericho saw him, they said, “The spirit of Elijah rests on Elisha.” And they came to meet him, and bowed to the ground before him.

25 Then he went from there to Mount Carmel, and from there he returned to Samaria.

The Names of God

Both yesterday night and a moment ago, God has been revealing something about Himself to me that really impacted me.

Like with Peter, God asked me: "Who do you say I am?"
I answered Theologically in the old testament.

JEHOVAH or YAHWEH which means the LORD (All caps)
First use Gen. 2:4 (Jehovah Elohim). From the verb "to be", havah, similar to chavah (to live), "The Self-Existent One," "I AM WHO I AM" or 'I WILL BE WHO I WILL BE" as revealed to Moses at the burning bush, Ex.3.

And the characteristics of Jehovah is found below:

Jehovah-Jireh: The LORD who Provides
Jehovah-Rapha: The LORD who Heals
Jehovah-Nissi: The LORD is my Banner (Victory)
Jehovah M'kaddesh: The LORD who Sanctifies
Jehovah Shalom: The LORD our Peace
Jehovah Tsidkenu: The LORD our Righteousness
Jehovah Rohi: The LORD our Shepherd (Ps 23)

P.s: I found a few more Jehovah names on the net but I am not familiar with them. But basically BS in CL ever gone through them.

So I rant off and off with the Hebrew names of God, Jireh, Rohi, Shalom, etc
And then God stopped me and asked me, which is the common factor in the names. And I answered Jehovah, LORD?

And He replied: I AM WHO I AM, I AM your Provider, Healer, Banner, Sanctification, Peace, Righteousness, Shepherd.
I know its like, ya i know to many, but when God says it to you personally... Man.. Its just different. And then God just whacked me deep.

"I can Provide for you , Heal you, Bring Victory to You, Sanctify you, bring Peace to you, be your Righteousness and also Shepherd You. But the important thing is not in the Characteristics in My names, but that I am God! Jehovah comes before Jireh, Rapha, etc."

I know it sounds like Getting Started or Christian Lifestyle, but believe me.
Knowing is one thing, Experiencing is another

Zi Ri- ah liang

Goodness... Heard this song today.. Its a song that I used to like.. Haha. Jasmine sang it for a while during Xiao Yong's birthday. Man.. Back to the early 2000's
I even used to able to memorize to entire song. Wow.. Memories


子日
曲:黄舒骏
词:武雄 阿亮
编:钟兴民 屠颖


孔子的中心思想是个仁
仁的表现是
己欲立而立人
己欲达而达人
己所不欲他勿施于人
如以仁为本体
表现在具体的行为上
come on everybody一起来
对父母为孝 对兄弟为悌
对朋友为信日 对国家为忠
对人则有爱心

我～亮子的中心思想是个why
why的表现是
搞不懂就问人
搞得懂就答人
没有人懂还可以问神
如以why为本体
表现在具体的生活上
come on everybody一起来
要懂得推理要心存怀疑
要充满好奇要钜细靡遗
要打破砂锅问到底

oh! my god
我听不懂看不懂
学不懂都不懂
究竟谁对谁错
人生多美爱情多痛
please tell me please
生命有太多疑惑
help me help me babe
oh!不要让我自己去摸索

有了车子想要房子
有了妻子想要马子
有了银子想要位子
有了位子拿了架子
搞了圈子使了性子
铁了胆子忘了老子!
什么原因谁人会知

先管面子再管里子
先填肚子再补脑子
先端架子再a银子
先兜圈子再想点子
先捅篓子再找路子
先出乱子再闪条子!
这款人生敢有未来

搞栋房子搞一辈子
停个车子一推单子
挑个担子叫破嗓子
凡夫俗子没有法子
卷起袖子迈开步子
半个傻子一条汉子!
何必怨叹这个时代

撇撇轮子串串门子
上上馆子补补身子
碰碰钉子找找乐子
想想法子混混日子
照照镜子刮刮胡子
打打拍子哼哼曲子!
阮嘛共款逍遥自在

oh! my god
我听不懂看不懂
学不懂都不懂
究竟谁对谁错
人生多美爱情多痛
please tell me please
生命有太多疑惑
help me help me babe
oh!让我知道如何去选择

一间房子两床被子
三面窗子四张椅子
收起爪子拉开帘子
嗑嗑瓜子想想点子
打着拍子唱着曲子
两把刷子好过日子!
轻轻松松笑笑咳咳

先打底子再摆摊子
先看例子再拿耗子
先照镜子再讲面子
先插旗子再给样子
不管汉子还是鬼子
不管老子还是小子!
脚踏实地才有未来

孔子孟子老子庄子
男子女子黑子白子
游子浪子胖子瘦子
正人君子梁上君子
天王老子毛头小子
天之骄子孤臣孽子!
大家共款拢是人才

不当俗子不做判子
不干头子不当痞子
不充胖子不装样子
不耍性子不搞圈子
不扣帽子不抬轿子
不卖关子不碰钉子!
欢乐人生逍遥自在

oh! my god
我听不懂看不懂
学不懂都不懂
究竟谁对谁错
人生多美爱情多痛
please tell me please
生命有太多疑惑
help me help me babe
oh!我只想要简单的快乐

孔子的中心思想是个仁
仁的表现是
己欲立而立人
己欲达而达人
己所不欲他勿施于人
如以仁为本体
表现在具体的行为上
come on everybody一起来
对父母为孝对兄弟为悌
对朋友为信对国家为忠
对人则有爱心

我～亮子的中心思想是个why
why的表现是
搞不懂就问人
搞得懂就答人
没有人懂还可以问神
如以why为本体
表现在具体的生活上
come on everybody一起来
要懂得推理要心存怀疑
要充满好奇要钜细靡遗
要打破砂锅问到底

guitar Teachers

Continuing from my last post.. (Nagging Auntie)
I think what Poh really deposited in my heart was the passion and love for God that he really has. The thing that he shared about a moving target was awesome.

I remember what Yongxiu shared with me when I was starting out to play for the cell group. She said that for every song I played for the cell group, I must have a revelation of the song for my own life and for the cell group. That was what Poh shared during the clinic as well.

So many times, heart-felt worship would change the atmosphere of a place.
Worship is a time when I feel closest to God,
Its a time when my spirit and heart would be the most broken to God.
Its a time when God reveals His heart to us. Its a time when I am comforted from all that I am experiencing.

And when He had removed him, He raised up for them David as king, to whom also He gave testimony and said, ‘I have found David, the son of Jesse, a man after My own heart, who will do all My will.’

- Acts 13:22

But now your kingdom shall not continue. The LORD has sought for Himself a man after His own heart, and the LORD has commanded him to be commander over His people, because you have not kept what the LORD commanded you.”

1 Sam 13:14

What's your revelation during your own quiet time? I just wanna love my God and what He loves more and more.. Thats all I want..

I WANT TO SING
UNTIL I AM LOST IN YOUR LOVE
TILL I'M FOUND IN YOUR PRESENCE
WORSHIPPING BEFORE YOUR THRONE

MOVE BY YOUR SPIRIT
ENTERING INTO YOUR FLOW
HOW PRECIOUS THIS MOMENT
LORD I WANT YOU TO KNOW

IT'S YOU, YOU WHO HAVE WON MY HEART
TAKEN ME INTO YOUR ARMS
COMFORTED ME LIKE A FRIEND

YOUR LOVE
SURROUNDED ME FROM THE START
I NEVER WANT TO BE APART
FROM YOU EVER AGAIN

Passion is something that leads us to wanting to learn more,
Interest is just I don't mind learning more.

Yet many times as Cell Group guitarist, we get complacent with our level of playing and learning, Our pride gets in the way. Usually, a cell group guitarist learns how to play the guitar FOR FREE! And we get complacent, not treasuring the times we have with our teachers, not honouring them as how we should. For the two teachers who taught me almost all the basic techniques that made me who I am, THANK YOU!!!!

They are........

Andy!

Andy was the one who taught me all the fundamentals. From a young, anyhow guitarist who chooses the songs to play for cell group (because can only play a few songs, so whatever Xiu wants may not be able to play) and one knows how to play G, Em, C, D to be able to play the barred chords. Remember that he haven't bought his own guitar yet and was playing a classical guitar with a huge sticker in front. But it was with that guitar that he taught me the power chords and all those as well. Thanks Andy, the sticker classical guitar and the pavilion near your place!

Wei Ming- Jo

Oh!!! This one is the power-packed one! Wei Ming was the one who taught me how to shuffle, strum with the 'piak' (sorry linda) sound, play 3-beat songs (killer!). He was also the one who taught me the dynamics of guitar for Praise and Worship. He also taught me all the Stylo-Mylo patterns and tricks for Praise. And his guitar is VERY heavy! The Ibanez 12-string guitar! Super solid and sounds like marachas. (The got handle kind-of-instrument with beans inside. Plus many people will not understand will it sounds like marachas. Hahaha!!!) He's super cool de lar!

And finally! This person didn't really teach me. But he impacted me tremendously!

Ivan!(left)

Man!!! Many of you may not know him. He is serving the nation now. But he is the best guitarist in our zone. Really the BEST! A word of praise from him about your guitar playing is like going to heaven already. I remember playing for make-up cell group for Chee Kiong and Ivan attended that cell group. When I saw Ivan, I got very nervous! Haha! Cos ar.. really stress when he was there. Its like Rooney or C.Ronaldo is here then you have to play football with them. Haha!
But after the cell group, he came up to me and say, "Hey, you are quite good ar!" Man.. I flew...
He then casually took up the guitar and played casually. But the problem is, what he is playing isn't quite casual at all. Haha! Plus, he is Poh's student. Goodness gracious me. Really inspired and encouraged by what he said. So if someone comes up to me and say that I am a lousy guitarist, I am secured. IVAN said I played well... HAHA!! Praise God!

Poh's Lesson

Today is a great day to be happy and to thank God for. =)

First things first, early last morning!
Berbatov scores his first two goals for United!

Mm1 sélectionné dans Sport

Man! There are a few moves and link-up plays that are really mouth-watering when Dimitar gets familiar with the players around.
=)

Second thing!
I finally learned how to play scales on my guitar. Like finally....
Thank God for Martin, all-guitar-chords.com and Guitar4christ.com I found the pattern and finally understand what do the diagrams mean.

The third and most important thing that made my day is....
The Worship Clinic with Brother Poh!!!!

(Okay.. This was a long time ago picture. And I did put on weight recently. Pray for me)

Woah.. Blown away by what he taught, the anointing he has, and the heart, the passion and love for music and God.

He taught about smth that some of my fellow guitarists and myself couldn't really agree and put into words, yet agree at the same time.

A Cell Group or Church Guitarist needs which one more or rather focus on:
Skills or Spirituality?

All the Cell Group guitarist I know agrees on this: Spirituality is very impt to the guitarist or else we can just get, with all due respect, Yamaha teachers to come to our Cell Groups and church to play. But they will never be able to create a spiritual atmosphere.

Poh taught that if we have a Spiritual rating of 9/10 but skills-wise 1/10. The influence we carry would be 9X1=9/100 (Area multiplication and 10X10=100). But if we balance it like Spirit=8, skills= 8. We get an influence of 64!!! which is not bad at all!

And Poh said smth that caused me to ponder and think about.
He says once a guitarist came to him and the guitarist said this: My Cell Group leader asks me to be more spiritual and pray." Which he did but the next week, his cell group leader asks him to pray AND fast. Which he did, but yielded the same results. He did pray and fast, but if he is spiritual, it means the other side of the equation is out of balance which its his skills!

Ps 33:3
Sing to him a new song;
play skillfully, and shout for joy.

1 Sam 16:16
Let our master now command your servants, who are before you, to seek out a man who is a skillful player on the harp. And it shall be that he will play it with his hand when the distressing spirit from God is upon you, and you shall be well.”

I begin to think about how to get about and increase our ratings on both skills and spirituality.
And I figured out this.

Skills take humility, passion, practice and hardwork to learn.

The Spiritual side, frankly speaking, is a matter of Want or Don't Want.

Not discrediting any of them, but skills really take more out of us.
Seeking God, worship, fasting and praying Should be a delight.
But learning skills take a lot out of our character and one impt thing, our pocket!

Also Poh said a thing that touched me.
Relationship is impt in the Kingdom of God!

Like what he said, a guitarist really spends hours practicing behind closed doors, buying all those strings, (NOT CHEAP!), carrying a heavy guitar to CGMs. (Worse if there's school or work before CGM) Its easy to feel unappreciated, unloved and lonely. But the reward is in heaven!
And frankly speaking, from the bottom of my heart, Its all worth it!

I don't really think I am ever the first choice guitarist for many leaders or song leaders. I am not really a very good guitarist. From the start, when I picked up the guitar, it was just to worship God in a way that I can express myself more (rather than through the inflexibility of the CD player). I remember till today, someone came up to me, I didn't even have my own guitar then, and told me that I can't play the guitar because my fingers are quite fat, so it will be difficult to press the chords. But who cares... I am playing because I love my God and I am playing for Him, not anyone else. I practiced real hard.. Till my fingertips are scarred, and I don't think it will recover, cause it never has. My first guitar's fretboard are totally worn out! Haha!!!

I remember praying to God: "God, if I can't bring and touch Your Presence when I play the guitar, What's the point of me playing at all."
And then came E431 where I got a chance to play for the cell group, not because that I am that good. Its just because there is not one else. I am not plan A, really. But God do has a purpose and plan. I remember my breakthrough song. The Song's lyrics are:

I have come to bow down at Your feet, Lord Jesus
In Your presence, there is fullness of joy,
There is nothing, there is on one to compare with You
I take pleasure in Worshipping,
I take pleasure in worshipping
I take pleasure in worshipping, You Lord

And Poh said smth in Worship today that sparked me into recalling that moment:

He said, "God wants you to enjoy Him, not just to play the guitar or song-lead."
Wow... Inasmuch as we are always saying that we wait upon God, He is also waiting for us all the time.

Man.. I felt that I could go on blogging and blogging nonstop! Haha! But I know long post bores people.. Do wish to continue. But maybe in another post sometime. Praise God! =)

My $300 piece of furniture is what links and brings me Closer to God!

phillipians

Felt that recently, God has been speaking to me about 'Track Records', past victory, knowledge acquired in the past and even experience. I felt that God spoke tremendously much through the Book of Phillipians.

But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.

-Phil 3:7-9

Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

-Phil 3:13-14

and the ultimate verse:

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

-Phil 4:7

Felt that really need to do so much more for my future, for the kingdom of God; given the time that I have right now. Book of Philipians really came forth as a Rhema in this season. I'm going to catch it and run with it. =)

Jia you jia you!!!

Understanding the Economy

There is no doubt that the world economy has been in a bit of a turmoil of late with extreme volatility in things such as the value of the dollar, the share market, and property.

Here's a humorous attempt to try to make some sense of it all ...

21 Economic Models Explained with Cows

SOCIALISM
You have 2 cows.
You give one to your neighbor.

COMMUNISM
You have 2 cows.
The State takes both and gives you some milk.

FASCISM
You have 2 cows.
The State takes both and sells you some milk.

NAZISM
You have 2 cows.
The State takes both and shoots you.

BUREAUCRATISM
You have 2 cows.
The State takes both, shoots one, milks the other, and then throws the milk
away ...

TRADITIONAL CAPITALISM
You have two cows.
You sell one and buy a bull.
Your herd multiplies, and the economy grows.
You sell them and retire on the income.

SURREALISM
You have two giraffes.
The government requires you to take harmonica lessons.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You sell one, and force the other to produce the milk of four cows.
Later, you hire a consultant to analyse why the cow has dropped dead.

ENRON VENTURE CAPITALISM
You have two cows.
You sell three of them to your publicly listed company, using letters of
credit opened by your brother-in-law at the bank, then execute a
debt/equity swap with an associated general offer so that you get all four
cows back, with a tax exemption for five cows.
The milk rights of the six cows are transferred via an intermediary to a
Cayman Island Company secretly owned by the majority shareholder who sells
the rights to all seven cows back to your listed company.
The annual report says the company owns eight cows, with an option on one
more.
You sell one cow to buy a new president of the United States , leaving you
with nine cows.
No balance sheet provided with the release.
The public then buys your bull.

A FRENCH CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You go on strike, organise a riot, and block the roads, because you want
three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and
produce twenty times the milk.
You then create a clever cow cartoon image called 'Cowkimon' and market it
worldwide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You re-engineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and milk
themselves.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows, but you don't know where they are.
You decide to have lunch.

A RUSSIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You count them and learn you have five cows.
You count them again and learn you have 42 cows.
You count them again and learn you have 2 cows.
You stop counting cows and open another bottle of vodka.

A SWISS CORPORATION
You have 5000 cows. None of them belong to you.
You charge the owners for storing them.

A CHINESE CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You have 300 people milking them.
You claim that you have full employment, and high bovine productivity.
You arrest the newsman who reported the real situation.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You worship them.

A BRITISH CORPORATION
You have two cows.
Both are mad.

AN IRAQI CORPORATION
Everyone thinks you have lots of cows.
You tell them that you have none.
No-one believes you, so they bomb the **** out of you and invade your
country.
You still have no cows, but at least now you are part of Democracy ...

AN AUSTRALIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
Business seems pretty good.
You close the office and go for a few beers to celebrate.

A NEW ZEALAND CORPORATION
You have two cows.
The one on the left looks very attractive.

[SOURCE: Jonathan MacDonald]

Taken from: markconner.typepad.com (Pastor Mark Conner's, of CityLife Church Melbourne, Australia, blog)

fishing

It has been quite a while since i updated my blog.
Last friday, XianBi, Kenneth and myself went fishing with Gabriel. It was an awesome experience, even though we caught nothing. Saw another side of Gabriel doing what he enjoys most. Also the smell of salty air and water- Wah!!! This is the smell from my childhood growing up in fish farm.

Really learnt quite some stuff, the solitude, the heart to heart conversations. the revelations and stuff like that.
Remember telling Gabriel this: "Gabriel, I realised fishing cannot train patience, it only reveals inpatience." "WHY NO FISH!!!!"
But it was just awesome.

Faith in God and myself

Used to think that I am always not good enough.
Whatever that I have done, always the bad and wrong is remembered, the good and right things are ignored, taken for granted and forgotten.
Always find myself stumbling, failing and falling all the time. Like a vicious cycle, it is exhausting, tiring and weary to the soul. I am never the plan A, I am always just the one filling gaps, replacing places that need replacing or when there is just no one else.

However, God reminded me through Pastor Tan that it is He who first loved me, cleanse me, forgive me. The One who gave it all for me on the Cross. The One who gave visions and dreams. Who spoke the heavens and earth and everything else into existence.

I felt that God is really speaking about the fundamentals of the faith in my life during this season. Really fundamentals, such as my giving to Him; the heart of worship, the sacrifice of praise and a life of purity.

But also for this very reason, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue, to virtue knowledge, to knowledge self-control, to self-control perseverance, to perseverance godliness, to godliness brotherly kindness, and to brotherly kindness love.
For if these things are yours and abound, you will be neither barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. For he who lacks these things is shortsighted, even to blindness, and has forgotten that he was cleansed from his old sins.
Therefore, brethren, be even more diligent to make your call and election sure, for if you do these things you will never stumble; for so an entrance will be supplied to you abundantly into the everlasting kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

-1 Peter 1:3-11

Yesterday, was fellowshipping with Jian Feng and Kenneth. Jf was talking about the fundamentals as well.

The three 'F's
1.Focus
2.Faithfulness
3. Faith

I beleive all these 'F's will amount to another 'F'
Fruitfulness

Confession time.
I have a God who loves me, who cares for me and understands me inside out.
I have a personal relationship with God, who is my Abba Father.
God is for me, God is with me, God is in me.
I have a destiny in life.
I am focused on my life's goals
I have faith
I am faithful.
I am fruitful.
I have a strong integrity.
I love God and I love people.
God's presence is the best appreciation that I can ever get!
I am Blessed!

Oh Lord You’ve searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was she'd for me
There’s no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done

And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me

I know You love me

Random photo from Genting trip

Free-flow Sashimi at the Buffet. (Amelia, are you reading this?)

indonesian

Just had a wonderful conversation with Xiu. Ever since taking a break from ministry, had never really had such a great conversation with her. It will be treasured and stored up.

Recently I have been worshiping and learning Bahasa Indonesia in my own free time. Really learning the language. I must go to Indonesia from missions. I am in love with the land, the culture, the food. Inspired by the faith, the songs and the heart-felt worship and singing of the Indonesians. Like what Xian Bi coined: "They wear their hearts on their sleeves." And how Jian Feng would put it, "Imbah, Gelato!"
Their worship is never for the show, never going through the motions. The riffs, the notes they play, the way they sing, its all anointed, heart-felt, emotionally-charged with love. No matter in Bahasa or English, wherether if it is in a language that they are proficient in or not, they give 100% in it.

Walau Seribu Rebah

TIADA PERNAH KURAGUKAN
KASIH SETIA-MU YA TUHAN
SETIAP WAKTU DALAM HIDUPKU
TAK PERNAH KAU TINGGALKAN

MESKI LANGIT TAMPAK SURAM
AWAN GELAP PUN MENGHADANG
HADAPI BADAI LEWATI GELOMBANG
TAK PERNAH KAU TINGGALKAN DIRIKU

WALAU SERIBU REBAH DI SISIKU
KAU TETAPLAH ALLAH PENOLONGKU
WALAU SEPULUH RIBU REBAH DI KANANKU
TAK KAN KU GOYAH S'BAB YESUS SERTAKU

between the altar and the door

Careless, I am reckless
I'm a wrong-way-travelin'-slowly-unraveling shell of a man
Burnt out, I'm so numb now
That the fire's just an ember way down in the corner of my cold, cold heart

Lord, this time I'll make it right, here at the altar I lay my life
Your kingdom come but my will was done, my heart is broken as I...

Cry, like so many times before
But my eyes are dry before I leave the floor, oh Lord
I try but this time, Jesus, how can I be sure I will not lose my follow through
Between the altar and the door

Here at the altar, oh my world so black and white
How could I ever falter
What You've shown me to be right

I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me
Jesus, I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me

Don't want to serve God anymore

Hmm.. After the trip from Malaysia and all, It has been another roller coster ride. Which is usually the case when we receive something powerful, a promise from God and straight after that trials come. Attacks from the Devil.

Came back feeling on-a-high, after a Rhema Word from God. But the next evening, totally chui.
Insensitive words from others, feelings of being unappreciated of the sacrifices and things I have done, I begin to throw a kid's tantrum to God.

"God, didn't You say this and that just yesterday? Why is this happening today? I DON'T want to serve You anymore."

But one thing about God, He is irritating at times. You will never outspeak Him. He just floods images of times that i was down and He was there. Moments when we did it together. And He just asks, "Really?" Man.. What to say?

Then after that listening to Hati Hamba (Indonesian Version) Totally overwhelmed.. He wins again..

Bervatov!

Yea! We got him! Finally!!! Dimitar Berbatov!

From Manutd.com email updates for fans
BERBA: THIS IS MY DREAM

If you followed every twist and turn into the early hours on a dramatic transfer deadline day, you'll have bitten your fingers nails and benefited from very little sleep. But Sir Alex finally got his man, and new signing Dimitar Berbatov says his United move is "a dream come true".

The classy 27-year-old striker has signed a four-year contract at Old Trafford for an undisclosed fee, and he's immediately set his sights on success with the Reds.

Berbatov told ManUtd.com late on Monday night: "Joining Manchester United is a dream come true for me.

"I look forward to playing my part in helping this club win more honours in the years to come."

Sir Alex Ferguson feels United have captured a player of world-class quality. He told us: "This is a key signing. Dimitar is one of the best and most exciting strikers in world football.

"His style and ability will give the team a different dimension and I’m sure he will be a popular player with the fans."

As part of the deal, United striker Fraizer Campbell will spend the rest of the 2008/09 season on loan at White Hart Lane.


Wanna know how he plays?

My Life

Uncertainty, Panic Attacks, Insecurities, Anxieties.
So many of these things are happening in my life now. Especially this season.
But God, I wanna hold on to the call, I want to hold on to You.
Fear Cripples.

Saw a vision during the morning prayer meetings,
I was in tattered and torn clothes, kneeling and bowing my head in prayer.
Then I saw Jesus, and a wonderful display of lights surrounding Him.
He came to me, and kissed me on the forehead. I wept...

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I'M WITH YOU
MY LIFE IS SAVED WITH A PRICE
YOUR SACRIFICE REDEEMED MY SOUL
GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I WILL SING
MY GREATEST HONOR WILL ALWAYS BE
TO SERVE MY LORD AND KING

God, I am standing here by Your Grace.

taylor

What to tell your wife after buying a Taylor guitar...

1.		I'll be home more often.
2.		I want to sing to you with only the best guitar.
3.		There are too many mediocre things to deal with in life and guitars shouldn’t be one of them.
4.		I have done full research and Taylors are the most durable guitars made.
5.		Among all guitars, Taylors have the best re-sale value.
6.		Since you have always been such a supportive wife, there is really no need to give you any reasons.
7.		I have good taste, why do you think you are my wife?
8.		Taylor’s lifetime warranty reminds me of my everlasting commitment to you.
9.		This guitar reminds me of how perfect you are.
10.		Anything less than extra-ordinary is a waste of my time, It’s the same reason why I chose you to be my wife. By Sinamex(Singapore)

what if God had voice mail

What if God Had Voice Mail?

We have all learned to live with voice mail as a necessary part of modern life. But have you wondered, "What if God decided to install voice mail?"

Imagine praying and hearing this: "Thank you for calling My Father's House. Please select one of the following options:

• Press 1 for requests
• Press 2 for thanksgiving
• Press 3 for complaints
• Press 4 for all other inquiries

What if God used the familiar excuse, "I'm sorry, all of our angels are busy helping other sinners right now. However, your prayer is important to us and will be answered in the order it was received, so please stay on the line."

Can you imagine getting these kinds of responses as you call God in prayer:

"If you would like to speak to ...

• Gabriel, Press 1
• For Michael, Press 2
• For a directory of other angels, Press 3
• If you would like to hear King David sing a Psalm while you are holding please press 4.
• To find out if a loved one has been assigned to Heaven, Press 5, enter his or her Tax File number, then press the pound key. (If you get a negative response, try area code 666)

"For reservations at My Father's House please enter J-O-H-N followed by 3-1-6"

"For answers to nagging questions about dinosaurs, the age of the earth and where Noah's ark is, please wait until you arrive here."

"Our computers show that you have already prayed once today. Please hang up and try again tomorrow."

"This office is closed for the weekend to observe a religious holiday. Please pray again Monday after 9:30 AM. If you need emergency assistance when this office is closed, contact your local pastor."

Thank God He doesn't have voice mail and he listens when we pray!

[Author Unknown]

Wild mare

Suddenly found myself fascinated with these creatures. I mean from young I already love horses. But it was after svc today that I find myself loving them again. Haha! They are absolutely beautiful. Especially Wild Horses, wild mares. Look at their hair! Long and shuai lo. Not like those trimmed! I saw visions of wild mares while singing the praise song, Today, by CCC.

Beautiful creatures! I found the chords. Click on me

On the Anvil

I got a new book; "On the Anvil" by Max Lucado Max Lucado likens the God's kingdom and ministry on earth as a huge workshop. And we are all God's tools.

For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
-Eph 2:10

The Blacksmith's shop In the shop of a blacksmith, there are three types of tools. There are tools on the junk pile: Outdated, broken, dull, rusty. They sit in the cobwebbed corner, useless to their master, oblivious to their calling. There are tools on the anvil: melted down, molten hot, changeable. They lie on the anvil, being shaped by their master, accepting their calling. There are tools of usefulness: sharpened, primed, defined, mobile. They lie ready in the blacksmith's tool chest, available to their master, fulfilling their calling. Some people lie useless: lives broken, talents wasted, fire quenched, dreams dashed. They are tossed in with the scrap iron, in desperate need of repair, with no notion of purpose. Others lie on the anvil: hearts open, hungry to change, wounds healing, vision clearing. They welcome the painful pounding of the blacksmith's hammer, longing to be rebuilt, begging to be called. Others lie in their Master's hands: well tuned, uncompromising, polished, productive. They respond to their Master's forearm, demanding nothing, surrendering all. Where are we now?

living rain

The song is based on this verse. The basic verse for revival. Heal our land.
"If My people, who are called by My name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."
-2 Chro 7:14


Parachute Band - Living Rain
G Key Capo 4 = B key

G D Em
Let your People Come
C D
In Desperate Need To You we Run
G D Em
Called by your Great Name
C D
With Humble Hearts We Seek Your Ways
G D Em
We Believe in Faith
C D
Your Promises Will Never Break
G D Em
Turn From Wicked Ways
C D
To live as Christ For all our Days

Pre-chorus:
Em
O God High up in Heaven
C D
Won't You Heal our Land

Chorus:
G D
Living Rain Fall Again
Em C
Over my Life Over my Land
G D Em C
Living Rain Wash my Heart Again
G D
Open Wide Heaven Skies
Em C
Over my Street O Spirit reside
G D Em C
Living Rain Flood my Life Again

Bridge:
C D Em G
Come Back, Back to Your First Love
C D
Back to Your first Love
Em G
Back to the Cross
C D Em G
Come Back, Back to Your First Love
C D
Back to Your First Love
Em G
At the Foot of the Cross